I don't know how people do big families - I think I'd find it very overwhelming, like I do holidays with the in-laws (who insist on large gatherings), but then again...maybe it's very different if it's what you're used to?
My anger at political topics right now that is making it hard for me to talk to/feel close towards my sister and her family, but I also feel like I should maintain a relationship since I no longer have parents to do that for us - she's one of my few remaining links. Still, it hurts to know she might not accept me if she truly knew who I was and how I felt about things...(and then I think, I am not being very accepting either). *sigh*
In short: I hear you. I wish you the closeness and security you desire, and hope that the differences can eventually be made irrelevant.
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Date: 2022-06-07 01:35 am (UTC)My anger at political topics right now that is making it hard for me to talk to/feel close towards my sister and her family, but I also feel like I should maintain a relationship since I no longer have parents to do that for us - she's one of my few remaining links. Still, it hurts to know she might not accept me if she truly knew who I was and how I felt about things...(and then I think, I am not being very accepting either). *sigh*
In short: I hear you. I wish you the closeness and security you desire, and hope that the differences can eventually be made irrelevant.